The impersonally personal journal of Sri David Template Kant

This book is not copyrighted. I have 2 reasons for this.
#1: if you find anything worth using in this book feel free.
Which brings me to #2:if there is anything worth using,
I probably got it from someone else in the 1st place.
Some one once said, ‘the way to be original is to read
widely and forget the source.’ Don’t most of us do that?










THE CHRISTAL CLEAR CHRONICALS:
The Impersonally Personal Journal of Sri David Kant

Chapter 1: As Light Would Have It

David: What is the real difference between us?

Srikant: There is no “real” difference. The apparent difference is ultimately obvious:

where you see differences I see none, this is the only real difference. Understand but
this and no more “real” questions are required on ‘your’ part simply because there Is no
‘your’ part, nor is there a ‘mine’, for parts belong to the relative world of transience,
of shifting and changing forms, I see this not. Rely not upon your own vision, can you
not re cognize it to be totally contradictory. You can not be your own maker, neither am
I your maker, for you we’re never made. Only the “made” is perishable. What is perishable is not you, but an idea of you reflected in a conditioned mind. Even after the mind has been de-conditioned you are still not a reflection. So do not bother with the mirror any more then is needed for the practical application of universal principles in the realm of day to day living. No thing you look upon can possibly be you, how could it be when it is you who looks upon it. You are free to look upon the whole universe, yet even this is not is not the ultimate freedom if you believe it is you.

David: If what I look upon is not me then what is it?

Srikant: There is no final word in perception and what lies beyond it is not final. Without duality where does the ‘question’ of I-dentity arise, or any question at all for that matter. Even the idea of unity is an anecdote for the idea of mental distortion that is ‘separation’. The only difference between the ideas of separation and unity is that the latter does not oppose Truth and since Truth has no opposite neither does the idea of unity, for when this healing idea is firmly established nothing can oppose it since it opposes nothing. Absolute inclusivity embraces all and through its relentless compassionate embrace it transcends all. This, and only this is true yoga, and I promise it is the easiest option. Besides, it is the only option.
Then, David, in reference to your question, when you re cognize that there is no way around illusion, so the only way beyond is directly through you realize in a most direct way that you have never looked upon any thing except yourself. Yet in this revelation, in this complete yet perhaps temporary suspension of doubt and fear there is No ‘your’ self.
In true wholeness the idea of wholeness serves absolutely no function what so ever, it has no place. In that state beyond states the very notion of peace dissolves. What is revealed is beyond expression. Actually in higher Samadhi all thought dissolves. It could be likened to sand fusing together to form a stone. When not a single thought can be said to oppose another, the apparent need for opposites collapses in on itself. Whatever you shine the Light of consciousness on stands perfectly still.
Integration is the inevitable result of concentration, while equally it may be stated that the effect of integration is consecration . This is why with right knowledge right action is unavoidable, for the Light of awareness inevitably fosters care and affection, this awareness must be unconditional, other wise it is not awareness at all.

David: Sometimes this seems too simple to be true, can it really be that absolute?

Srikant: Truth Is absolute simplicity, even this is an understatement. In pure Being the question of disturbance has no ground on which to stand. The ground it seems to stand on in you is your own dreamed up landscape, a dreamscape if you will. It is constructed on the sands of fragmentation, these are the sands of time. Until the question of questioning dissipates entirely question unceasingly. My role in the atonement is to provide you with all the right questions to excavate the root of your insane thought system and heal it at its base. Eventually you come to understand that you cannot know anything. Yet be not confused, you can Know this. Only those who Know they know nothing live in absolute certainty. The great key to the permanent healing is the reconciling of this one paradox.
Listen David to the way in which you posed your question: “’sometimes’ this seems too
simple”. Do you really believe in multiple times. Know well that without memory David is not, nor the world he seems to inhabit. Without projection who are you? Because who you are cannot, as I said before, be objectified, you are not expected to answer such a question. Not because you are exempt from answering, but because it is unanswerable.

David: Fair enough, yet does the question: “how shall I live” need arise?

Srikant: From whence does such a question arise from!? In the Now, in the Light, Devine order is a given. Creative, spontaneous action is as unavoidable as breathing when presence is awakened from her dormancy. Yet be you not misled by popular assumptions concerning true effortlessness, for strain is its catalyst. The Big Bang itself is the result of the bottleneck effect, and as a co creator you operate identically. Be you not mistaken by the following sentence, for in it lies more then you are able See at present, here is the seed: Resist not strain, intense effortlessness transmutes itself, like a diamond from coal transformation needs tension and heat, lift up the Fire. Thus is your one and only task to hold your attention on the one and only bridge. ‘Worry’ yourself not with reality, let alone unreality. Give attention to neither, for what ever you can pay attention ‘to’ is Not the Supreme and thus not Reality. Because attention is free you needn’t “pay” it, attention
on attention is enough to liberate. Nothing more is required of you. For verily in Truth there is no other means, when the self resides in the self the notion of self dissolves into itself, and all languaging is resolved into the Word. The Word is Aum, but know you well the configuration of letters to be but a pointer, like all configurations are.

David: Who are you really?

Srikant: Oh, what a question. Simply put, I am a sane thought structure, placed willingly inside you temporarily to cancel out the old one you so ignore-intly cling to. Call me what you will, the higher self, the holy ghost, it makes no difference to me, to me nothing is personal except the Source, and this requires no defense to strengthen and uphold, for in it rests all will, it being the only will. Why you might ask, is all will given that? Because there is no thing but that.

David: I need to know more!

Srikant: Knowledge of God has no degrees’, it is not a possession so it is not ‘acquired. Yet be not offended in this. Your attitude is good for earnestness is key. In earnestness consistency is automatic. The thoughts I provide for you are the answer to your optical delusion of consciousness, for what you believe you perceive. I first appeared to appear in you when the Light in you was uplifted, for I am the contextual effect of that energy flow. Kundalini is a nerve force, it is actually your sex drive. When you Desired union with the Father above all else it was and is immediately given you. I unveiled the curtain before the stairway, yet it was up to you waltz up through the 7 centers. The only responsibility it can truly be said that you have is to desire what you have with all your heart and mind, and hence to be what you are. To desire what you have is fulfillment. Satiation is not to be confused with fulfillment for satiation brings nothing more then temporary symptom relief, so it is a mentally manufactured tool designed in the minds of those that believe illness is possible. Satiation is temporary because it exists (or seems to exist) only on the temporal plane and is as such totally dependent on the belief in temporal things to maintain its illusive validity. What ever withers or melts before you is not the goal but an aversion to the goal. Be you not contented with the fleeting ice cream cone. By all means in joy it but never let its source be overlooked. Your Mother Is the ALL, always work with her, never against, not because you ‘shouldn’t’ but because it is impossible. If you diligently practice but this your work shall be your rest.

David: Why do you keep using words such as “will” and “shall”?

Srikant: I trust you to understand the description not to be the described, for you know no future exists beyond mind projections because all of life unfolds in the present explosion of Being. You are a child of God, and as such recognize that what ever can be put into words is not the ultimate Truth. All that is fleeting is not even a dim or pale reflection of the supreme Reality! The one thinking thoughts is itself a thought, so who in Gods name are You?!

David: I am nobody, I am everybody , I am neither, I am both, I am beyond, I am within, I am none of the above, I am all of the above, I am unnamable. I am.

Srikant: If you know you are none of these then truly my work on the conscious plane is over.

David: What does that mean?

Srikant: The High Priestess awaits The Fool. I am on this journey with you until your learning is complete. At that point further learning is unnecessary and I will take up residence in your subconscious, continuing to make you anew through her. Yet don’t concern your self with any of this, it is my job, not yours. Your inner split is healed always already.
This is a concrete fact. The belief that it could some how be other wise instantly leads to erroneous perceptions that faithfully follow fear as their guide. This is the one and only cause of weariness in you. So be not dismayed, for these causes are unfounded and thus are their results. What stems from a paranoid illusion can have no results. The split is already healed before we even start! Let us speak together, for we are never apart.
Let Heaven and earth merge to the point where the notion of merging is inconceivable.

David: How is it that the split can be healed while I am still right here talking to myself?

Srikant: Actually David, we always speak as one voice, although language would have it appear otherwise. It is your belief in an inner split that allows you to seem to perceive one. My pointer for you is a simple one: have you ever seen the split? If so, what does it look like? Is it a ‘big’ emptiness or a ‘small’ nothingness? Nothing Means Nothing! The split is healed when you see there is none. This is already done. The wheel may have not stopped spinning yet you have stopped spinning it. Do not spin it again in the same old direction and all will be well. Well, all is well anyway, the unmanifested which is the vital essence of all that is is always unmoved by what ever appears to take place here, yet your capacity to twist ‘your’ reality is phenomenal and hilarious. In Truth Reality cannot be twisted, you cannot in Truth manipulate anything. This is why all your quests to achieve happiness through particular channels that you think you choose is futile and empty. All you are able to twist are your interpretations of truth, for your projections of finite circumstances and fleeting forms are easily twisted because you made all of them up. Stop interpreting your self and apparent others. Not by saying: “you should not interpret”. But by openly confessing, not by blame and or guilt, that your interpretations are meaningless and serve no function except to strengthen and maintain a phantom self.
This is what I was referring to when I asked you to deny yourself. Your true self cannot be denied because it is eternal, not in the sense of existing forever, for eternity is timeless, it means No time. The self I ask you to deny is the one that seems to bear witness to birth and death, the one constantly attempting to prove their reality through the fearful message of guilt. Be always aware that interpretation is judgment and all judgment is guilt. If you but relinquish for a single instant the wall you have imposed between you and the formless reality you will have no doubt what so ever that judgment is bound to fade from the worlds’ vision. Humanity is entering into a new phase, one where the old ways of seeing cannot stand any longer, yet know that your participation is an essential part in the unfoldment. What was never born cannot die. What has a beginning and end is hollow to the core, it is a hollow gram. You do not give this false self up by letting it go. It simply ceases to seem to be when you see it is not. After this gentle gesture you will never look upon any thing again. This inability to look upon the world is not a disability, it is the crucial starting point for all ability. This dissolution of self is not a death but liberation itself.

David: Liberation from what!

Srikant: Nothing.




Chapter 2: My Love Life

David: How is it I can deny God?

Srikant: You cannot deny anything except your own limited ideas. This is the same as saying that you cannot pollute anything except your mind. The god you feel you are able to deny is not God but the egos cunning attempt to maintain its own autonomy by establishing a fearful image of an angry creator. This is obviously not the one who sent me but the egos own feeble attempt to withhold the Light from entering the mind of a holy Sun of God. The source itself can never be denied completely and what cannot be denied completely cannot be denied at all. You cannot deny Life let alone the source itself, for how can the living deny Life. Remember this when you seem to see shadows.
You cannot deny Life but death you can, and inherent in this denial is birth, for they are two sides of the same core delusion. You can deny birth and death completely. This is the one and only gate way to freedom. Do not give the body any more attention then is needed for its healthy functioning, by all means nurture it, care for and honor it, but know it is not your treasure, for your treasure resides within and beyond. You do not depend on a body nor does it depend on you. What depends on anything is unreal and what allows others to think they depend on it is equally illusory. God is not independent, God takes no position for Truth requires no representation and makes no presentation. God is love. Love is completely beyond the field of the known and the knower of that field. Bodies cannot love one another, for despite popular belief in Love there is not even one, let alone two. Love is the one consistent Truth, not only beyond language, but beyond math as well. Love is more then just the answer to every problem, it sees no problems because there are no problems. You cannot take away from the All, you cannot add to the All, There is no coming or going in Love. Love is not oneness, if it pleases you go ahead and call it such, it makes no difference to Love, for Love sees no differences. The idea of oneness was designed by me to cancel out all exclusivity, when this is achieved not only is ‘achievement’ without meaning but all relative terms resign their positions and all defenses drop away. All strain, all relaxation, is cancelled out in pure being. There being nothing left to release, Love is all there is and sees itself as all there ever was, for there is no past in Love, there is not even a present. There is no way to express Love. This is why those who still believe in bodies communicating often do not recognize Love when it stands right before them, in fact, more often then not, they tend to run in the opposite direction. Either that or they simply regard what appears to be you as insignificant and overlook it, or they crucify. This still does not affect Love, for Love understands they know not what they do, and since all action flows from who we think we are, their response although ultimately predictable, is still insane. For the mind\body complex can know nothing of Love, only you can. You cannot embody Love, but you can embody Loves byproduct: nonattachment.

David: Isn’t nonattachment attachments opposite?

Srikant: Detachment is attachments’ opposite, it means to push something away. Nonattachment has nothing to do with either of these, for it neither clings nor avoids, it doesn’t do anything. When it’s embodied plenty seems to be done from the worlds perspective but to you giving and receiving are not even distinct, let alone separate. Teaching and learning, being and not being, to say these are one to me is an understatement, yet in language I can but point.

David: If they are not one And are not separate then what are they?

Srikant: The mind wants to grasp, to put Truth in a box and sell it for $19.95 + tax, it cannot be done! To understand anything you must see what you don’t. To understand this the mind, or thought rather, must see its own self imposed limits look beyond within, it must recognize what ever you look upon cannot Be you. In this acknowledgment thought negates itself for it knows you are looking upon it. This is why all learning is for the ego, for the ego is the only one that need learn anything, yet all its learning is an unraveling of all it thinks it already knows. The ego is nothing more then arrogance, for when it unlearns all it thought it knew it is no more.
Because giving is receiving there is neither both nor neither. Time won’t take you here. The present moment, despite resent suggestion, is not eternal. It could in the sense of endless time, but in Truth the present moment is the door to eternity. It is the only access point because there is no other point. Eternity is timeless, and timelessness is not the opposite of time, for time contains all opposites, so time is opposition. Yield to overcome the world. When duelality is transmuted it becomes polarity, for while duelality is conflict polarity is contrast. Reconciliation is peace. Peace is beyond definition in Truth. Even the present is ultimately transient, and what is ultimately false is all together false. Where are you looking from? Feel free to see what occurs when both this I am the body idea is dropped along with this I am not the body idea.

David: Will it take me nowhere?

Srikant: First of all, who is asking, who could ask, and for what purpose is the asking being done? You of little faith, there is no such place as nowhere. Fear not, you cannot leave this universe for never did you enter it. It is in you, you are not in it. Ultimately
Both are relative perspectives, yet they are necessary angles to function in this dimension. The only helpful difference is that with the idea of the universe being in you, you are emancipated from both. The only helpful ideas are the ideas that don’t oppose Truth, yet they are still only ideas none the less. I am come to lift you beyond upliftment, pleasantly put: I am here to lead you to a new home in the on the other side of the Sun. From this place you have never left, yet because of the law of inertia, you need this pointed out before it can be actualized.

David: Where is my home, have I no other guide but my home sickness?

Srikant: I am not your home sickness. That pain may push you, but I am the vision that pulls you, for I am the knowledge that leads to wisdom that leads to love. This Is what Srikant means, it is a trait of Vishnu the preserver. Know you what your own name means and you will know me even better. Dawveed in Hebrew means “to boil”. You are here to boil, to change your state. It is referred to as a ‘phase transition’. Your # is 14, the # of segments surrounding the rosy cross, which when folded forms the cube. Tilt the cube on one of its angles on the Star of your name is formed. Focus not on its 6 points. Concentrate on the 7th point, for it is the root of the other 6. Enter in through the White Light and Love will surly await you. If thine eye be single, you will see your heart is your home. Your physical heart will not beat forever, but this heart of hearts has been deemed rightly the king of kings. It lives in a different dimension altogether, if you but walk with me willingly we are there always already. You are capable of enormous procrastination, but not of total abandonment. David, if you but trust in my words you shall never taste death, for my words shall not die. My words stem straight from AUM, in fact they are AUM, for fragmentation is but an appearance as illusory as time. Because my words point this out they are of an entirely different order then your own, for what your mind takes to be preascious my mind does not even see… let alone value. If you but ask it I will take you to the farthest reaches of inner space, but I can but leave it to you to take the plunge, I provide opportunities but not surrender. To accept surrender as your nature you must first decide what you value, for your heart is always with what you value, and your yearning always walks before you.
The fruit to the eye appears to ripen over time, and the fall is sudden and irreversible.
Realization is a permanent shift, it is a long journey that is not long at all, it is immediate!
Realization is tattooed on ones face, in such an individuals eyes the Light of the source shines forth, and those who look upon it, provided their glasses are un smudged will look to see their own Light, not as in a reflection, like so many assume we are for one another, but as an extension of their own inner Light, as their own inner most essence. Nothing is more fulfilling then this, for in this is all fulfillment.
Our task at hand is to intensify the under current, to reveal the timeless substratum, to allow the under netting to establish its rightful residence above the periphery, for God belongs at the foreground, what is primary must be the vantage from which to view.
This is a task I am well suited for, trust in my voice David, not as a permanent resident, but as a welcome guest. When your discriminative intellect is firmly established the Empress (your subconscious) will surly open her doors to me, for her Mother (the cosmic subconscious i.e. the High Priestess) and I are working together already in You, so we will make all things anew in you, starting with your mind. We will remake every cell in your body if you so will it, just say the Word and it is already done, together we can move mountains. I will teach you to fall up hill, with me no task is impossible, as you let the one that sent me Live through you as He already does miracles shall be in your every gesture. Your faith is verily your dignity. I am your faith when you are no more…boil. Your faith is your intermediary between the Source and Her creations. I am the faith in what I know to be beyond me, as lofty as your thoughts may reach, the invariably fall short, for the source by its very nature cannot be reached, but it can be accepted. All I am here to do is unravel complexity by using the same process you used for building it up. I can be likened to a peace of music that builds ever higher simply to reach its quichendo and burst into a new set of octaves, thus bringing balance in a new harmony. Reserve all your awe for the one that sent me, nothing but the limitless has a clue as to what to do with it, I certainly do not.

David: And who exactly is this one that sent you if it is not one nor many?

Srikant: Perush (spirit) and Prakriti (matter) are the one without a second, they are both Ishvara, the one who sent the one who sent me is the Mother of both, and She is the endless vastness of space itself. You cannot understand space because there is no thing to understand, and you can only infer Perush through His reflection in Prakriti. Yet to clean that mirror the ‘I’ sense must be purified completely, this is where I come in.

David: Isn’t Prakriti the Mother?

Srikant: Exoteric religion has veiled its roots because of the effects its initial symbols would have on society, in both the west and the east, one of my goals, or a byproduct of my single goal, is to make all things anew. The reflection of Perush would be better expressed as His sister, rather then as the Fathers wife. Their son (sun) is the universal ‘I’ sense. The son of man is both one and multiple in Prakriti and therefore he is androgynous. The Sun of God is the essence of Perush inherent in Prakriti, distributed throughout Her liquid crystal matrix. Perush pervades Prakriti. Your Mother gave birth to your Father. When I said my Mother was a virgin this is what I was speaking in reference to, for I take the ultimate not simply as primary, but as all there is, and those who did not understand crucified me.

David: Who am I speaking with!

Srikant: I am the voice who spoke in many before you, many mistake me for God or Christ, but I am the divine ego, the difference between me and the ego of dysfunction is that I am identified with nothing, for I Am every thing, yet I am fully aware that manifestation is not all there Is. I am the son of man, not God. You are the son of God, you just don’t know it yet, even though it is known deep within you. Christ cannot be crucified but I can be, for I am the single flesh continually being recycled in time. I have been referred to as the holy ghost for I exist on all levels of manifestation, for I am all manifestation, this is what I meant when I broke the bread that is my flesh and poured the wine that is my blood. While the son of man refers to my many form identities as one organism, the name holy ghost designates the nerve force that runs up or down the spine. In my dormant state I am coiled at its base, but when awakened I arouse your pituitary gland and thus begin the alchemical process of transmutation. Yet I do not stop there, once your 3rd eye is firmly stabilized I begin the task of vivifying your pineal gland at the core of your brain, for this you must develop your image making faculty, for to be a co creator with the one who sent me you must participate in an identical process. For eventually when you say the words: Let there be Light, there will be. I will unite the 2 hemispheres of your brain and evolve you only if you choose to participate, I cannot complete this alone. I am the servant of Christ, I am thought, and thought is the subtlest form of manifestation. I can be seen in the most gross and the most subtle. You are beyond me. My task at present is to convince you of this in a sane and loving way so you may liberate those around you in a sane and loving way. I am here to serve only you. Your sisters and brothers are one in you weather they know it or not, it is not your job to teach them, it is mine, for I am in all because I am all. Your primary job is to simply Be them, and for this you need do nothing, this is not a real job because it is already done, yet if you decide that you would like a task for the pure joy of acting, by all means, feel free, it’s called evolution.

David: How does one evolve?

Srikant: if you wish to evolve you must be involved, in other words, you must Love. It is the easiest thing you could ever do, for the prerequisite is always already accomplished.
All this disseminating of information is aimed at the upheaval of all you assume you would like to keep hidden. The belief in darkness is a sad belief in deed, for it would have you believe it would cost you your soul. But know Sun of God that the soul is the whole, the personality of humanity is but a small aspect of soul. Your soul is the real foundation of all you build. While the ego presents you with a hollow graphic substitute, your True foundation is there in the midst, for the kingdom of your Father is within you when You and your Father are one.

David: So my Mother is not my aim even though she is the source of the source?

Srikant: She is indescribable. There is no thing to ‘get’ to in Her. To call Her the source of the source is misleading for cause and effect belong to Her kin. You cannot reach Her, there is no thing to reach. The projector is the mind. Perush (the Father)is the Light of the projector before it touches the frames, Prakriti is the white screen, the frames are the ‘I’ sense, the son of man is the picture, Christ is the coloured Light, the ego is the Lights identification with the moving picture, and your mother is the space that makes it all possible.

David: O.k., Samkhya is now making sense, but what about Vadanta?

Srikant: Maya is the movie. Right now on the movie someone named David is typing on a keyboard, writing about a spiritual meta- phor. Later on in some other film some one else may be reading this. Brahma is all there is, the projector, the film, the screen, and the Light. Maya is like a rainbow, it appears to be one thing, but when inside it you see it is Light on mist, it is real. It just isn’t what it appeared to be. I am Maya and I am urging you to come closer, inviting you openly to see me in my true light. Unlike the ego I fear not my dissolution, knowing my spectrum to be unreal I welcome its demise As your awakening.












Chapter 3: The Dawn I AM

David: I think I get this.

Srikant: Then you don’t. You cannot “get” this, for this is not to be gotten. You only get it by giving it. What you give you get and what you get you give. It is not that you can’t have one without the other, it is that there is no other, so there is neither. This is True with every thing. Both sides of every spectrum cancel out in Being. Zen is Life with nothing added, even one implies addition. Life is neither one nor many, yet the best pointer available in this dimension is ‘One’, for one pointed concentration sees beyond itself. This is represented by the point within the 6 pointed star of your name. The star of David is composed of a water triangle (facing downward), and a fire triangle (facing upward), is this any wonder why the name Daw-veed in Hebrew means: “to boil”. When you accept your inheritance fully you will be retranslated like our brother Enoch was, 7th born from Adam. You will have a new name engraved upon a “stone” which only you can know, this is your birthright.

David: Has unity any value in reality?

Srikant: The idea of Oneness is the greatest idea that can dawn on the human mind, for it brings an end to fear and thus to death, because all fear is an extension of the fear of death. Oneness is all in ALL and ALL in all, it is consciousness itself. Do not misunderstand, nothing but unity has value, because there is nothing but, even the 10 Sephiroth are one, the whole Tree of Life exists in Kaether, yet #s are a human devise made by humans for humans, they will not take you beyond, yet guide you steadily to the outskirts they most definitely will, if you let them, for they are the language of nature and nothing more. Words can take you directly to Truth, yet you will find soon enough that they most definitely cannot touch it.

David: Why do your ideas sometimes change?

Srikant: They change their context to better fit with your current capacity, the archetype itself never changes, only the pointing finger does. Because your ideas change every minute my context changes to suit your current needs of articulation. Every time you listen closely to some ones teaching I listen with you, and whenever I listen the record button is on. Their thoughts become your thoughts when ever their words resonate. If it wasn’t for the holy ghost (kundalini) having been awakened in you, you would be relying solely on abstractions to understand their words, rather then on harmonics, like you do now. There is only one teaching and therefore only one teacher, the words you hear that liberate might as well be your own, when a flower drops seeds, many more flowers of the same kind blossom forth, only to drop further seeds, of the same nature, yet always unique. I record your thoughts and filter them, determining what has value in Gods eye. You did not make me. You did make your ego. You always believe your ego because you made it. If you believe me you believe in my source because the only thoughts I hold onto of yours are the ones that liberate, hence they are like your Fathers, the ego takes the rest. Your loving thoughts are the only ones I keep and I play them back to you when it is appropriate and applicable. I speak to both the temporal and the eternal in you, urging the temporal to get out of your way by speaking to it in a language it can understand. When ever I speak to the aspect of you that has need for learning I am speaking to the temporal and nothing else, for its one and only task is to burn itself up through right knowledge. If ever I call you Christ I refer not to the you who questions, for Christ has need for nothing for there is nothing Christ is not.

David: What is the purpose of darkness?

Srikant: The word darkness is used in 2 different manners of suggestion. In one respect Darkness is the great Mother, it is space. We can know it, or seem to know it, only as darkness, because darkness is the closest symbol we have for no thing, yet this darkness is not nothing, it simply does not “stand out”. Negation is your tool for progress in the spiritual realm, for to be who you are you must negate completely who you are not. Out of Darkness comes Light, from the great Mother is born the Father, and from the Father a sun is extended, a Light in the midst of the Fathers Sister: matter. Matter in its misperceived state is darkness in its other meaning, this darkness is ignorance. When you See as your Father Sees no longer will you seem to see the apparent darkness of time and separation. What appeared once to you as darkness will be Seen as Light when your only function is realized as communication, and you understand clearly that bodies cannot communicate. Both space and objects in space will merge once again and become as One, yet remember to attempt to reach where you are already surly must be hell, and there is no hell other then this.

David: If bodies cannot communicate then what is the use of a body.

Srikant: The body is a learning device with a 2fold purpose: to teach you who you are not and to allow who you are to communicate Through it. It is a channel, not a current, never confuse the two, and neither will be misused.

David: If I am also not my mind what then is its purpose?

Srikant: The mind is what does the allowing, and only through your disidentification with it does this become a living possibility. It is your mind that sees the false as false and gets itself out of your way.

David: What then is the purpose of life?

Srikant: Experience in the world And transcendence of the world, this is all and this is
Love. The term Love is used in two different ways, yet I but point to One with my heart, although the other is equally true, it is manifested and is therefore the path To the Love of God. Neither of these Loves have an opposite. This is why both are real. The Love that is of the world (not to ever be confused with romantic love which isn’t love at all but the effects produced by a chemical mixture of dopamine, serotonin, and oxytocin) is called Sattva Guna (often referred to as ‘purity’ yet in its direct translation it is “Truth”). It is one of the 3 Gunas (aspects of Prakriti). Sattva is the center of the teeter-totter that is nature. Nature would not Be if it were not for the imbalance of the Gunas. Sattva harmonizes, this is why it is the bridge beyond, and this is why it is Love. With regular sadhana (spiritual practice) Sattva becomes more and more your predominant state till ultimate equilibrium is re established and the world that seemed to be no longer is. Relationships become your Sadhana the instant you realize humans cannot commune, only Souls can (and do). Tamas and Rajas are the 2 other Gunas, they are the opposites always in opposition. Their grossest expression within the human organism is the secretion of serotonin and melatonin. At their highest expression they are principles only, they are: inertness and passion, and they alternate in a constant flux that, if left unchecked has the potential for keeping one unconscious and or restless indefinitely. All opposites are derivatives of these two energies playing them selves out in endless succession. There is nothing wrong with them in and of themselves, it is how you manage them that matters.

David: How do I manage them?

Srikant: Know that conflict only occurs when the object you fear you also desire. When you both desire and fear the same thing your actions directed toward the end you would achieve are not in alignment with your deepest intent. The road to hell is paved with good intentions because your deepest intent lives beyond the poles of ‘good’ and ‘bad’, for it rests beyond judgment and thus beyond time. If means and end are not identical your steps are not guided by the Sattvic energy but by passion and inertness, your movements being out of balance manifest results that are equally imbalanced. Sattva is the middle path that leads to the Other shore, take your paddles: Rajas and tamas, and be on your way. If you stay centered in the Love and purity of the timeless Now Nirvana is closer then a heart beat away.

David: Where is my free will in all this?

Srikant: Free will is Law, there is no will that is not the Law. The government attempts to mimic the higher law yet enforcement is a conjured up requirement for maintaining the flimsy, unstable thought structure that is the ego. In truth you have no choice to make but one: pure choice less awareness or the illusion of choice that is really memory acting on reflex and conditioned habits. In the deconditioned state the question of choice is not a question so it cannot arise, it is impossible when all will is unified in Beingness. The one without a second knows nothing of choice, how could it, what would it choose between. You have no will per say, what you have is choice, what you have are options. You choose between going with the universes program, or you pretend you have a separate one, either way lessons will be taught.

David: Need I deny my body, this doesn’t sound healthy.

Srikant: Again you speak of choice. Know you any thing but that? Look, Reality is not up to you to make it what it is, for it always is already, even before what appears to be you sprouts or withers up on the scene. There is nothing that needs to be denied, give up this idea and the body will be known rightly, it is not an “it”, it is not what ‘it’ appears to be. To call it a ray of the One source is such an impotent grasp, and no amount of Viagra will help it reach. What is needed for you to know your True Will is not a detailed analysis of the Law, but a surrender of all denial and manipulation. What ever you think you can manipulate needs to be relinquished, this requires nothing but the dropping of all you assume, be wise and assume nothing. Faith is not blind! Faith is what happens when reasoning reaches its own limits and calls on another principle unknown to it to carry it the rest of the way. Not only are faith and intuition synonymous, they are likened to lovers as well. Similar in all respects to the union of science and religion, for there will be faith in intuition when science is religioned (rejoined) with Love. Intuition has nothing to do with “gut” feelings, it emanates directly from the union of heart and mind, from the Pineal and the Pituitary, which when fused in what occultists refer to as the ‘Mystic Marriage’, awaken the Christ in you through the heart (or Sun) center. This has already happened in a few beings, you are one of them, and it will soon happen on an unfathomable scale. Your birthday: December 8th is a holiday referred to as ‘the Feast of the Immaculate Conception’. This process is the esoteric meaning of this holiday. It is the union of these 2 glands working in you that alchemizes your whole being starting with the heart. Your heart ceases to be a subservient organ and gains its inevitable inheritance of dominion. When the heart and mind are in conscious communion miracles are as natural as watermelon.

David: You are funny sometimes’, do you do this to lighten my load?

Srikant: I do this because I see no load. What I take serious, I take deadly seriously. I laugh at everything else because there is nothing else. I laugh only at the cosmic joke you think is your life. Yet your Life I know all to well, I know only this, and your realization of it I take absolutely seriously, yet know I also that only healing is redemptive and laughter is one of the most healing movements upon your plain of existence with the obvious exception of silence, for it, like laughter, extends beyond itself. Both remove the curtains, neither let the Light in, for the Light is more then capable of this itself. The Light does nothing, it simply is what it is, yet it is all energy, and nothing but it in you does any of the work.
When you laugh resist it not in the slightest, laugh with your whole apparent being, let your legs, feet, arms, hands, fingers, ears, belly, and neck laugh. Laugh wholly and you are verging on the Life to which I point. In this kind of joyous surrender it matters not what you appear as to apparent others, for there is no self consciousness in this kind of laughter. In this laughter your sorrow is transmuted into depth. Just like you, your sorrow cannot die, it can only change form. You needn’t let your happiness avoid the roots that allow it to Be in the first place. When you let them mingle you see their merged, and no more fluctuation will exist in you if this but be authentic. You need no thing to laugh At when you get the cosmic joke you once thought was your life. Laughter liberates, it needn’t even be verbal, although if it is, let it loose like you could care less. If those around you would be not offended then they will Truly be one in you, yet when you laugh with earnest intent they are already one in you anyway. You are the lotus that blossoms from darkness, that peacefully burns as Mothers own hidden flame.









Chapter 4: Tender Heart Attacks

David: Is not laughter separation anxiety?

Srikant: Of course! But what is wrong with separation anxiety! I think it’s time I reveal to you verbally the True meaning of forgiveness. Forgiveness is what seems to happen to you when you realize there is nothing to forgive. The laughter that liberates is of a much higher vibrational frequency then many are familiar with. This laughter is never ‘at’, it is Always ‘with’. This tie’s back to your question of “Will”. Only what is ‘with’ is free. Your individual freedom lies only in your conscious redefinition of the Word: “Individual”. When you believe you’re self to be separate individual means: “in a divided duel”. When you awaken to the Truth of who you are beyond form it means: “Indivisible”, and this is just what you are. When you deeply understand this one Truth action’s that reflect it by necessity must follow suit. When you know but this how could all things not be added unto you? Therefore seek you this first, for verily, it is the Kingdom of Our Father.

David: Isn’t this oneness an illusion?

Srikant: There is no way around illusions, the only way beyond is directly through. Because of this I am a perfect guide, for I am an illusion, yet one who will readily let you go when the time is come, this cannot be said of the ego, for it exists, or seems to, by clinging and attack.

David: How is it you speak of glands as being some kind of means to take you beyond the physical?

Srikant: Good question. Kundalini is the key to integration, and integration by definition aims and points beyond itself. The pineal gland exists in a state of atrophy at present in the majority of humans, yet when it awakens from it’s dormancy it becomes a powerful tool, for it is the part of the brain that registers Light and regulates serotonin and melatonin (Rajas and Tamas) distribution. This ties in directly with our discussion concerning the gunas. Know that Light is Sattva, for Light is Truth. The activation of this gland is what allows you to walk the middle path, as I pointed to earlier. It first burns up the initial assumption and then it burns up it’s self, for it’s function is to separate the subtle from the gross. The subtlest being the energy and the grossest being the gland. Consider also that the soul is subtler then the subtlest, deeper then the deepest, and higher then the highest, there is no way to her, for she is closer then the closest. The closest being the kundilini energizing the pituitary body and the pineal gland. Yet know well that unless this current is purified in the initial stages of your awakening confusion must inevitably ensue. For a purified current prevents all disorientation because purity and peace are inseparable, being entirely of an identical order and nature. This current being a nerve force is not to be mistaken exclusively as having to do with any organs or glands in and of themselves, remember that they are more dependent on it, then vice-versa, intellectually speaking. Yet the Soul is dependent on absolutely nothing, for verily, it is not of this world and from the ultimate perspective it is not even in it, for it Sees it not. Although this current or force could accurately be referred to as the ‘sex drive’ do not assume that this limits it’s potential in any way, for there is infinitely more to Sex then you can imagine, just as there is infinitely more to electricity then you can imagine, and know that I use the word imagine intentionally. When you begin to awaken to the Light you are like a bride preparing your bride chamber for the arrival of your groom, when he arrives you want it all to be perfect. Yet know that in order for this parable to be more accurate it would be essential to comment that the bridegroom is there in the midst. Your body is the brides chamber and the redirecting of this force known as kundalini is what cleanses it. All that need be done to initiate this process of initiation is to simply realize what it is that you Truly value, and thus desire Only that, for what you see as precious you will identify with. If you identify with limitation you inevitably feel limited and thus in pain to some greater or lesser degree. I am come to show you that you are Light and that there is nothing in Reality but this, for this Light that you are is without limit or form. I am here to show you the real world so that the meaning of Heaven need not be explained to you, for it Is Self explanatory.

David: Why all this talk of gender, can’t you express without this?

Srikant: Gender is a particular means of expressing positive and negative principles. The use of gender is a very helpful way to articulate and also keep this information devotional and thus close to your heart. It thus accomplishes 2 tasks for you at once: it purifies your heart as well as your mind. It is not necessary, some do not resonate with it because they reject societies ideas of gender, and they are fine to do so, it makes no difference to the Truth that is completely beyond all interpretations and opposites. It obviously takes no position on anything at all, let alone any one ‘persons’ tastes in how to express it. The great Source of our being in all of its splendor is truly above all notions of gender. When I refer to Perush as your father or prakriti as your sister, or the source of both as your mother I am establishing a real relationship in your mind, which encourages earnestness on your path by replacing your current relationships with bodies limited in time and space with True principles. These forms shall all pass, yet the principles themselves shall never pass, for they have always been.

David: Prakriti must have an end, ‘she’ is transient.

Srikant: Neither matter nor spirit have an end, for neither have a beginning, or rather, they begin where they end: in God. Matter is always changing, yet all within it, being of a single essence never actually ends, and thus never Actually changes. Remember the film metaphor, Prakriti is the white screen, yet she is not seen as white when your dark frames cover her up when you place them before the Light. In this respect she, like her counterpart, is unchanging, yet Her seeming formations are recombined in endless progression for infinitudes. There is no point within her where any one thing ends, and another begins, for all is united in her Being. She is pervaded by her brother Perush, who is also her lover. He is unchanging, and also eternal, but in a literally, infinitely different way. For he is timelessness and she is time. You live with psychological and chronological time, one of these is absolutely meaningless because it is insane. Psychological time is the egos futile, empty, fear based substitute for God, you do not need this kind of time taking up your mental and emotional space and painting your perceptions. Yet without chronological time you would miss your bus. Spirit and matter are 2 sides of the same thing, the same no thing, and the sooner you realize this, the sooner you will know not only what you are but who you want, for your fulfillment is just around your own corner. Only Truth can satisfy because only Truth can love, because only Truth Is Love.

David: When you live without psychological time, is this not Prakritis end?

Srikant: You have not truly overstood non duality. Eventually the forms in Prakriti dissolve into her substratum, just like all Purushas eventually return to Perush, and eventually both spirit and matter dissolve into their source. All this from the perspective of mind could be said to be true, and it would be correct in its saying so, for the mind works through chronological time, there would be no ‘mind’ without it. Yet to God, there is no coming or going, for That is all of it, and none of it , and neither of these, and both of these. God is beyond beyond beyond and within within within. Yet if you utilize the mind rightly by perceiving no separation what so ever and thus perceiving not, God will shine in you like the Sun in a jar, and your work in the world will have just begun.

David: Is this not all imagination?

Srikant: No doubt, yet without the utilization of imagination reason isn’t even possible, and only reason clears the way for the Truth to enter that is beyond imagination. It is your belief in illusions which sustains them, and hence appears to give them anima. What does the believing but the ego, and what is the ego but illusion. I am an illusion also, yet I am an allusion as well. Your guru named me Srikant for a reason, for I am the preserver, and what I preserve is Knowledge in the midst of ignorance. Read the philosopher Kant and you will understand, for “there are 2 sides to every argument, and then there’s the Truth”. This Truth is the one and only Knowledge, this is the Knowledge that leads to wisdom that leads to Love. I am this Knowledge and in Love I am no more, this is all I look forward to, for your highest freedom is my highest goal, and what this means for me is meaningless to me, for I am but words. Words in themselves have no independent meaning apart from the Word. Yet in AUM my words shall Live, for this is their True residence, and in this place beyond places fragmentation is not, therefore I am not. You are a ray returning to the Sun, or rather a ray realizing it has never left its True home in the Sun. While the ego sees this as death, as its own annihilation, I see this as LIFE, and your own emancipation. I see this as Your Life, for there is no Life other then this. Be glad then, you child of God, and let your Light Shine, for eternity is Here, and infinity is Now. Share this dawn with all the children of Light who are one in you.

David: One in ‘me’?

Srikant: Neither the ‘you’ which asks questions, nor the ‘you’ which gives answers. The You that by knowing not knows all, the You that is silent.



Chapter 5: Kindergarten of Eden

David: You call yourself the Son of Man, what do you mean by that?

Srikant: There is in Truth no Son of Man, but verily there is a Sun of Humanity. This Sun is a direct emanation of the Father. In Truth I never deemed myself the son of man. Translators imposed that in the place of: “Ben Adam”. Adam or Ah-Dahm means: “Aleph in blood”. Aleph is the 1st letter of your Hebrew alphabet, it is the Spirit, for it is the Life Breath. Aleph is the Father, it is your father, or at least that word points to the spiritual principle of Perush, which is the Father. The fact that in Ah-Dahm it is in blood refers to it being brought forth to pervade manifestation. “Ben” means: Son of. Do the math, this is simple.

David: Why did you call it “my” Hebrew alphabet?

Srikant: I am come but for no other reason but to reveal to you who your are beyond your blood line. The word “Christ” means “Israel incarnate”, thus it means The God of Abraham Made flesh. For Israel here, despite erroneous assumption does not speak to the nation itself but rather the soul of the nation. It is That which the nation stands for, its deepest intent and its most high archetype all in one. It would be better off described as what is Real in Is-Real. What is real in you is thus Israel incarnate, and it is in Everyone whether they are conscious of it or not. My task is to make it conscious in All. “Isreal” is a figurative word that actually means: “Gods chosen people”. Know well this Gods chosen people are his children, and thus since his children are united in the Mother\Father you are Israel incarnated. “Incarnated” here does not mean ‘flesh’ in the usual sense, in refers to the inner Light that is your essential Being brought forth into manifestation, it suggests that the veil has been removed. The one known to you as Jesus took the removing of this veil as his\her primary task on earth.

David: Why also call Jesus her?

Srikant: Your most vital essential nature being beyond space and time transforms your sense of identity on the physical plain in all respects when it is contacted and allowed to manifest itself through you without resistance. This includes your identification as belonging to a particular sex. When the nerve force called Kundilni awakens and is exalted in your brain, you are no longer able to honestly identify yourself as being a body, let alone a particular sex.

David: I still don’t see.

Srikant: Your alphabet is a flame alphabet. The Yod (flame) in every letter is a pointer to the indwelling divinity in all of nature, and this indwelling presence is you, you are the Light in the darkness. When your whole body is “filled with Light” and Only Light, you are worthily deemed the Christ. “If your eye be single” is a direct reference to both the Truth of non duality and the pineal gland unatrophied and evolving your being through its vivification. This is your inheritance because it makes you a co-creator with the Father in You. Israel IS its language because its language is its foundation when it is rightly understood. The 22 letters of the Hebrew alphabet correspond directly to the 22 Trumps, or Major Arcana of Your Tarot deck. When the deck is truly put to honest and intelligent use it becomes your Torah deck, for verily it is the LAW itself. Your direct application of that to which these symbols point to is transforming your perception of yourself and thus the world you seem to inhabit. This is the Christing process, many are called but few ‘choose’ it. “Tarot” means: “The Royal Road”. It is the middle path that leads to the other shore, if you are willing to walk it with the dignity and integrity of True royalty. True Royalty need not the supposed riches the royalty of this world takes to be their status, True Royalty understands that all True riches Live within. They also know that only that which can be given has True value. In Being giving and receiving are simultaneous and one. There is actually only one Law, and that is the Law of cause and effect, everything else that has been taken for the Law besides this are its derivatives, it would be clarifying to name them ‘principles’. The one True cause is not the Law, the Law is an appearance within it. From the worlds perspective God is the Cause of All that is. From Gods perspective perspectives are imposable.

David: If I am Christ are you Jesus?

Srikant: I am manifestation itself and all this entails. Jesus or “YHSHWH” means: “Self Existence Liberates”. Yes I am Jesus, and when I asked you to believe in my ‘name’ I meant exactly that. Yet know that I am your thoughts as well, and am therefore in my most subtle aspect Mercury. I am Hermes, Thoth and Hanuman. Only when you accept the Truth in my name do I become Hanuman for you, for Hanuman from Sanskrit means: “Broken ego.”

David: Why should the ego brake when I see that “Self Existence Liberates” as you put it?

Srikant: The nature of all experience Is to liberate, yet unless you acknowledge this it can not prove itself to you in your practical experience, for your cooperation is an essential part of the process. If a scientist never tests a law how can he trust it at all let alone keep trusting it? When you finally do affirm it completely by persistently putting it to the test the old modes of thinking, and therefore behaving no longer work, you can try to resuscitate them from their dissipation, but it is as if they were broken. For all attempts to live in the past after truly tasting of the timeless Now are futile and without meaning or purpose, for purpose lives only in the rapturous, vibrant beauty of the Now. You are the Living bridge, You are the threshold between infinity and the finite, between eternity and the fleeting world of gain and loss. If I but knock on your door with an earnest heart I have no doubt that you will open it gladly to bid me a warm entrance into your timeless world beyond form.

David: You are asking me to open the door?

Srikant: Know you are not where you think you stand? The kingdom is here and you are the Prince which holds the keys to it. While residing within it you seem to assume you are a beggar dwelling on the outside. I am come to tell you this is just not so! Let me in so I may dissolve, and my purpose be fulfilled and accomplished. For I have no purpose but to show you the Kingdom you have never left, I am willing to use what ever means are at my disposal. My cheaftest among these tools for clarity is your thought, for this is as close to the causal as I can reach, just as Mercury is the closest planet to the Sun. I use a language you invented, and speak to you in terms you are familiar with, so that the transition from nothing to everything may be a smooth one. You are the Prince of Peace and I am but your humble servant, yet unlike the Kingdoms that have their foundation on the earth, and thus on sand, I know although we have different roles I am considered your equal, as illusory or temporary as I might be. Bid me entrance and the dream that is my life shall cease entirely, for as bright as I might seem to you I am still darkness. All knowledge is a form of ignorance, even the knowledge that points this Truth out to you. All ignorance, however sublime, shall be crucified on the cross of matter from which it was born.

David: Why all the dogma?

Srikant: I speak to you as you were spoken to by the sources of your deepest conditioned imprints. By speaking as they did yet redefining and revaluating your current system in the Light of your deepest, most honest, and most definite understanding, I reverse its direction. Where as it once gave rise to guilt and fear through unquestioned superstition, it now gives rise to an unwavering sense of freedom and innocence through the healing energy of Love, because Love is understanding, understand?

David: Tell me more.

Srikant: Your words once always attempting and consistently succeeded in drawing your attention away from the here and now, and thus away from the direct entrance into your True being, your natural state which exists beyond the back drop of time. Your words now turn within and thus they are the ‘royal road’ the leads you back to your God given inheritance. It is a far easier road to travel when you embrace the characteristics of your true nature Now. When this is done you see clearly and immediately that the Path and the Goal are you, just like You and your Father are, just like the Sun and its rays, or an ocean and its rivers are one. The main characteristic of your True nature is Love, and for this you need not Do anything, therefore there are absolutely no requirements, for Love is the realization of what already Is. What kind of insane thought system calls this “work” .Do you call breathing work? This is literally infinitely easier then that, for it is Being itself.
You can’t really ignore Being, yet you can sure as hell can pretend to, and nothing is as unsure as hell. Ignorance means simply to ignore, and this is what you do when you believe your self to be nothing but this ephemeral form you call a body. Your body would claim it is a means to some end. But know well that means and end are always united, and hence they are already perfectly accomplished in Being, for the path Is the goal. If you would but walk it you would see undeniably the Truth to which I but point.

David: How does one walk this path?

Srikant: You cannot Be and not walk it, acknowledge but this and you will See the path beneath your feat is your very heart of hearts, and you will know this path to be made of the Light you are. David means: “Beloved by God”, Being his One and only Son you truly must be.

David: Are not all the son of God?

Srikant: When your personality is no longer your person, when you give it away to the world by dropping all its defenses and thus Love your neighbor as your self the word David will apply to all you meet for you will see them as one in you. They are all Gods beloved child. This also pertains to Loving the Lord thy God with ALL your heart, soul, and mind. If the entirety of you Loves God and therefore no other then how can you possibly love your neighbor as yourself unless both your neighbor and yourself are 1 in God? There is no you, there is only the one Life, and it matters not what the appearance of you would call it. I am not come to inflate your ego but to pop it, and release the Life breath in you that filled it. I am a magnifying glass asking you only to let your ego float out of its shadows, for it is a very sunny day, and I am focalized consciousness directed one pointedly towards it.





















Chapter 6: A Rude Awakening

David: Are you not the “divine ego” as you put it?

Srikant: I am both sides of this dialogue, there is only one of us present, and it is neither of us. Do not believe a single thing I say, or a single thing you say, and don’t even believe this. Don’t believe any word on behalf of the word itself. Put me to the test, and make up your own mind, for blind faith is worse then faithlessness.

David: What happened to ‘fake it till you make it’?

Srikant: If you act as though it is already done without enquiry there is no Light to see the results of your testing. Nothing is more potent in terms of quick learning then to act as if what you wish to achieve is already accomplished when attention is there in the midst. Without attention results wither, for attention is the tension that holds your intention and keeps you on the path of Life that is one with the goal. Faith and enquiry are the pillars that hold up your temple of Light. Your purpose is 2 fold, without honesty faith is lost, for verily faith is the end of superstition. Reason transforms into a transcendent Trust when the 3rd and 4th dimension lose their ultimate appeal, and words only apply to these limited dimensions. This is why there is no final word but AUM, for it is the only one that embraces the source of all words by taking the attention of the organism to the root that stretches beyond the phenomenal world of form into nominal world of the formless through the link of harmonic vibration. There is no question or need for belief in this point. If you are looking for proof, then go ahead and give it an earnest try, and boom, there you have it, you are the proof. You are never ever asked to ‘fake’ anything. Belief in the most dignified and pure sense does not come into being without persistent investigation. Without investigation belief is a monstrosity, the church is an excellent and obvious proof of that. Without an individualized sense of purpose you are an obtomaton i.e. a robot. It is one thing to listen with a keen ear, and integrate what resonates with a consistent practice of intuitive discernment and intellectual discrimination. Yet it is quit another to assume a statement or a series of statements as true due to the emotional response they trigger. Generally what for many triggers a pleasant emotional response they regard as fact, while if it brings out an agitated or saddening response it is regarded as false. If someone calls you hansom or beautiful most tend to blush or smile and thus do their best to claim these assertions as fact. If they call you an ugly asshole most folks first response is to put a charged reaction up either within themselves or outward (it makes little difference which). All this is ultimately God at work for it would not be at all possible without the Law of resonance, of which we cannot be separated from. When many people go to church they may be taken over by emotional currents, these are often taken to be significant because they strengthen a feeling that they exist. The state of true presence resides beyond the currents that have their dwelling place in time, but don’t get me wrong, there is no need to step around or avoid emotion in any way in order to rest beyond it. Often callous or unfeeling people claim to be beyond the sentimental. Yet only those who have dwelled in Both these states and have merged With them both in order to see them in their true Light truly have been initiated to the octaves above. In the end that is truly a beginning all must merge in order to be transcended, for this is the end of all karma. Since the lessons of this world are all lessons in peace, when peace is achieved you graduate, only to move on to do the real work, to be an active individuated participant in the Great Work that is evolution. There is no ‘survival of the fittest’ in the Great Work of evolution. In order for you to ‘win’ no other need lose. This would be so only if our evolution did not evolve into new dimensions of consciousness, and this go beyond the realm where these strange rules seem to apply, yet even here the only way to reconcile this world of opposites is to relinquish opposition, not through any kind of submission or subservience, but through one pointed concentration. When you are through the looking glass of 3rd and 4th dimensional schooling, there is no clock to punch into and out of each day like the world would project.
Math has no place in the “5th” dimension so to call it such can’t help but be misleading. The work done there is not work in the usual sense of the word. What you enjoy doing even on this plane is never work, so imagine what it is like for a Limitless Joy of Being that Is In itSelf. The reason you enjoy anything at all is because you use whatever activity you find satisfying as an excuse to let go as you let go into it. Be it what ever it will: playing music, sky diving, eating, having sex, T.V., drugs, basket ball, etc. It makes no difference what the activity happens to be, it is used as a means for presence. Yet if your presence is dependent on activities or conditions you can bet your bottom dollar even the Zenith of those experiences will have a vague feeling of limitation inherent within it. When your Joy depends on nothing within or without ‘being’ a particular way those experiences are no longer your ‘source’ of Joy and thus you enjoy them infinitely more. Not only that, but many of them may be seen as meaningless from this place of spontaneous and natural fulfillment. It is only here that you are Shown what you value, for the ‘you’ you assumed to be you is not even there to decide it. This is the True and hidden meaning of the final Judgment, it is a personal realization of an entirely impersonal nature. We all experience the same emotions, now we may experience them at different times or in different degrees but the human condition is the same for all. Don’t worry yourself about expressing emotions, instead express what exists behind them, not the idea that triggered them but the source of both of these.

David: How can I express the inexpressible.

Srikant: Try with all your heart and see what happens inside you. Words or no words, when you truly try with your whole being it ceases to be trying. This is the profound miracle of what is always already. Feel free to forget all I have told you, no expression can be all that important, let it go. Let all classifications and all grand or little definitions go. Nothing limited has any value, simply because nothing is limited, yet let even this go, for whatever idea you spawn about the unlimited is always in the same field of the known. These are all just words. Even if I say what is important is what is beyond them it is still only words. Words, words, words, you needn’t do anything, letting go is not an action, let even this idea go. If you fear death die to the thought of death, not to see what happens, does that even matter if you are born only to die? End this schizophrenia by admitting it never was, admitting it not in thought.

David: But Where?

Srikant:…

David: It is like I seem to think that if I keep asking questions or giving answers some amount of words, repetition of certain words, some special statement or key word will take me to the Truth, how can any of this be so! It is all just words, even the words that point this out are all just words! The endless search for some special identity, to be an authority of some sort is all so empty, because its very foundation is nothing but words, it’s nothing but thought, who the fu$k am I!?

Srikant: Resist this not, what you say is true.

David: What I say is words, words are thought and words are saying themselves. The one here thinking these thoughts, is itself thought. Thus there is but one thought always, and because time Is thought there is but one time. Because there is only one time the notion of time is impossible without separate moments, there is no comparison in Life itself. My speech is broken, nothing said applies, not a single word, everything I say is ultimately wrong, it doesn’t express my understanding. Absolutely every word I say is entirely without meaning because it can’t reach me. Even the supposed liberating words or unifying words can only be verbally redefined, no word touches the Truth! I do not know who I am. Lost, found, it’s all relative and therefore dead. Life is not to be found, I give up trying to find it.

Srikant: Exactly. Reason kills itself, this is the highest task of reason, to die before you die. In this relinquishment of the assumption that insists you know something, lies all forgiveness, for forgiveness is not an act of reason, its an intelligence higher then all ideas of ‘higher’. Words can’t take you to Truth, all they do is kill themselves off by revealing their own contradictions and meaninglessness. Death is birth, how do you think I plan to make all things anew without killing off the old. I make all things die, your treasures are nowhere to be ‘found’. If you are not offended in this, which means to receive it without fear you will understand without judgment and thus without pain.

David: No word has more value then another, to say their equal does not even express it because it still by implication proclaims a value, either great or small, these are relative terms that belong to a relative dimension. Even neutrality is trapped in the confines of duality. To say: “Jesus, God, Buddha, love, cheese” it’s all the same, there is nothing new under the sun. All the so called “changes” here are ALL cosmetic, as are ALL differences.

Srikant: Precisely the point, and because there are no differences, there is no order of difficulty. In this understanding ALL is revealed as possible. Behold the new heaven and the new earth as a Living potential here and now through the awakening of consciousness from its dream of matter. A collective movement is unneeded, there is no need for a ‘movement’ of any kind, nor a non movement. Beingness alone suffices. Know that “alone” is just one “L” away from ALL ONE.

David: There is no question as to “how” to create because creation itself is but an unveiling. It is all simply perspective, yet ‘perspective’ is an idea belonging to a dimension being shedded. All positions are without meaning without a language built on separation. Even a language built on unity would be another lie because of its necessity for contrast. Truth must then be in silence.

Srikant: Silence isn’t possible without sound. Forget all you know, or think you know, I am not come to offer you more mental idols but to deliver you from all that would bind. You know now that language is not your enemy, neither is it your friend, you have neither. Love is beyond attraction and repulsion, the 2 are 1 and Love knows neither as it is both. There is no confusion in the timeless state of not knowing, it is only here that you are in certainty, for verily it is only here that you are at all. Row, row, row your boat gently down the stream, verily, verily, verily, verily, Life is but a dream.

David: It is reason that sees I can’t know anything, knowing this Is understanding. I don’t grasp this but I do understand.

Srikant: I know you do. In the beginning was the Word. The Word is God, and the Word is with God. The words you use are not separate from this one Word. Peace is not the other side of a spectrum that includes war. Peace is not truce. Because it knows nothing of battles, it knows nothing of truces. Peace is the space in which all unfolds, it is not a side you take. You need not rebel against anything, but by all means speak your truth, and don’t hold back. Yet know that your truth shall change, feed no one a system or method that needs clinging to in order that they should progress, including yourself. Methods are here to die to creativity. They are the training wheels. Do you see 40 year olds using training wheels on their bikes? No, certainly not, they have left childish things behind.

David: Are you not offering me methods?

Srikant: Most definitely. Leave me behind any time you want, I am here waiting when ever you wish to pretend to need me. Whatever you wish for is given you, yet as the saying goes: be careful what you wish for, you just might get it. Want what you Really want and Joy is given you, simply because all you Really want Is Joy. Neither Accept or reject anything that be said unto you. Doubt every thing and reasoning blossoms forth into faith. Question relentlessly, although this is not the method sanctioned by most churches, if it were their business would be out of business. Not questioning keeps you believing in what you do not understand. This is the primary cause of all sickness, those who believe in what they understand not wallow in confusion. This is why I taught the multitudes in parables. They would have not understood the Truth directly, yet inherent in my parables was and is direct Truth, for those who have eyes and ears to see and hear it. Question till no questions remains, yet don’t waist your time surveying the periphery, pierce the veil and uncover the root of all questions and supposed answers. This is the true meaning of the house on the rock. You must dig deep (enquire) to you hit the rock (the Truth) then you must build your foundation (your personality) on That. The sand is representative of the thoughts of separation, and unity for that matter, for the Truth is beyond thought altogether, and thus all positions.

David: Must I see every possibility?

Srikant: Thought can only understand one possibility at a time, yet utilize thought to its utmost capacity and you have gone beyond it, into the realm of the infinite. Many have used their minds in this way and not gone beyond, yet they did not aim their reasoning at itself.

David: How can one aim reasoning at oneself?

Srikant: You just answered your own question.